Firstly, I'll apologize for the fact that my bedrest playlist seems to play automatically whenever this page is called up. I will try to change that... just as soon as I figure out how.
I started a blog with my first pregnancy, but when it ended in an early miscarriage the posts quickly became about the pain and struggle of pulling myself out of that hole. It makes me sad now to go back to it, but I don't have the heart to erase any of those posts either. So here we are on a new branch, new blog, new baby.
Briefly - I am a 2L, married, 30 years old, and 5 months pregnant. Pregnancy continues to be unexpectedly trying.. at 14 weeks I just started hemorrhaging out of nowhere and have been dealing with a partial tear in my placenta and a subchorionic hemorrhage ever since. The condition isn't well understood: there are no known triggers that cause it, no risk factors, and no solid evidence as to what might help it resolve. Just random and fairly obscure. For whatever reason, my placenta bled into the space between the amniotic sac and the uterus, and when the active bleed was done (for me, after a panicked run to the ER with very heavy bleeding) I was left with a sizable pool of blood clotted next to the baby. Again, very little hard science, but it is thought that this clot puts me at risk for preterm labor, membrane rupture, and a host of other fun worries without any possible treatment. We can only cross our fingers now and hope that my body reabsorbs the clot, like a bruise healing, or that the pin on this particular grenade is just never pulled.
I spent a month on and off bed rest so far (some docs believe it helps, others don't) and went pretty bonkers with the stress and boredom. And I was desperate for a cheeseburger and a shake! Lord do you ever miss the bad things when you're not free to get them yourself.
The good news is that the baby is doing wonderfully still, growing like gangbusters and super active. Every week that passes is a huge accomplishment - one week closer to a normal outcome. (21 weeks down! 15 to go!)
.... Oh, and did I mention that I'm in law school? You know things are bad when law school is nothing compared to the stress of another situation.
Welcome, all.
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ReplyDeleteWhew, I sure know the feeling. Good luck with the remainder of your pregnancy. I know it feels like an eternity, but it'll be over soon and all the fun begins!
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